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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      The_Avengers_(Marvel_Movies)
  Relationship:
      Peter_Parker/Tony_Stark
  Character:
      Tony_Stark, Peter_Parker
  Additional Tags:
      STILLLLL_going_to_hell, this_one_has_some_kind_of_fluff_in_it????, these
      two_are_fucked_up_lmao, Blow_Jobs, Oral_Sex, peter_is_still_underage
  Series:
      Part 4 of Mentoring
  Stats:
      Published: 2016-05-22 Words: 1541
****** over his head ******
by WattStalf
Summary
     Follow up to firsts and next time.
     Tony and Peter both try to confront one another.
Notes
     HAHAHAHAHAHA why do i never stop
See the end of the work for more notes
“I just have to know when we're gonna-” Peter started, but Tony cut him off.
“Look, I'm gonna stop you right there, okay?”
“But...Mr. Stark, we really need to-”
“I told you not to call me that anymore, it makes me feel weird as hell.”
“Okay, okay,” he said, shaking his head. “That's not what we need to talk about
though. After everything, I really just want to know when things are going
to...you know? I mean, that is where things are going. Aren't they? That's what
it seems like, but we haven't really...talked about it much?”
Tony knew this day was coming. He knew that every time he let his control slip
and let Peter back into his office, he was pushing himself closer to a
confrontation like this, but that hadn't stopped him. Neither had the crushing
guilt, and neither had the knowledge that he had to be ruining this kid for
life. He'd had a chance to do something great for someone who really deserved
it, and instead, he'd done this. And now Peter thought that they should talk
about their future together, because of course the poor kid thought that they
had one.
“That's because there isn't anything to talk about,” he replied. “And, look,
this thing- that really isn't anything, don't get any ideas- has been going on
for too long, so I think the only thing we need to discuss is how this was all
a horrible mistake, and we're both gonna pretend like it never happened.”
“But that's bullshit!” Peter burst out, looking surprised as soon as he did.
“I'm sorry, Mr. St- Tony, but it is, okay? You can't just...I mean, you
can't...after what all we did, you can't expect me to believe that. Maybe once,
or twice, but it's been...it's been more than that, a lot more than that. You
can't tell me that didn't mean anything at all.”
He was still so innocent that it hurt to listen to him, and Tony knew that he
had gone too far a long time ago, to push him to this point. Peter wanted
something more from this, something that could never happen and that would
never be able to happen, but no matter how obvious that was, he still wasn't
able to wrap his head around it. And he still thought highly enough of Tony to
want that with  him , even though there was no way he deserved that.
“Kid, I wish I could say something else, but it didn't mean anything. It was
just a big mistake, and I'm taking full responsibility for it, but wasn't
anything more than that,” he said, hardly able to bare the way Peter's face
fell. “And I am sorry I let it go too far. I'm the adult in the situation, and
I was an idiot about it. Please, just go ahead and hate me for it.”
“But I don't!” Peter protested. “I can't just hate you when I've spent so much
time liking you, and I don't think this is a mistake and I don't think you do
either. I mean...you don't, do you?”
“Like I said, I'm supposed to be the ad-”
“I'm not as much of a kid as you like to think I am! And I knew what I was
doing, I thought about it a long time before I even tried anything with you,
and I know the age thing is weird but you know just as well as anyone that I'm
not like everyone else my age, right? I'm smarter, and I've got a lot more
experience with pretty much everything but this.” Tony opened his mouth to
protest that, but Peter wouldn't let him until he was done. “But I know enough
to know that I have more in common with you than I do with most people, and I
know that I like you a lot, and that I don't want you to treat me like a
mistake!”
There was just no way that Peter could really understand the depth of what he
was saying, there was no way that he could really know Tony and still think
that he felt that way about him. “It's the experience you don't have that
really matters here, okay? I'm sure you think you know what it means to feel
that way about somebody, but at your age, it's really easy to get confused and
think you feel things you don't and you act stupid about it. Sometimes you
think things are way more intense than they are, but you don't 'like me a lot'.
You can't.”
“And why not?”
“Because why would you like me? After everything I've done, why would anyone?
Most of the time, I don't even like me anymore, kid.”
“No offense, M- Tony, but now you're the one acting stupid,” he said, and then
he pulled Tony in for a kiss. Tony often forgot just how much stronger than him
the kid was, and he wasn't able to resist. Peter's lips crashed against his,
still a bit awkward, though he had certainly picked up a thing or two during
their time together. He wished that he had been able to teach Peter something a
little more important than that, but he couldn't help but feel a little proud
of the kid.
And if he couldn't fight his way out of the kiss, then he had to endure it, and
when he had to endure it, he found that he still wasn't strong enough to fight
this. Even after finding the resolve to try to break things off with Peter, he
couldn't find the strength not to return his kiss, and he gave into it,
shivering when Peter moaned in response. When he pulled back, he gave Tony a
little grin like he knew he was getting his way, and Tony was frozen in place,
conflicted when he knew that he shouldn't be.
And when Peter dropped to his knees and unzipped Tony's pants, he still didn't
stop him, and he didn't stop him from fitting his mouth around his cock. Tony
was, of course, already hard, because he was pathetic and never any less
lonely, and he rested his hand on Peter's head, letting the young man take the
lead. It wasn't the first time they had done this, and Peter had gotten pretty
good at this as well, bobbing his head and making Tony moan desperately.
The first time they had done this, Peter had only mimicked everything that Tony
had done to him and he had hesitated and stumbled. Now, he seemed so sure of
himself, and he kept his head going at a steady rhythm, tightening his lips and
increasing the friction as he sucked. This was almost too much for Tony to
handle, and he tipped his head back with a low moan.
He could have at least tried to stop Peter from taking things this far, but he
hadn't. He could have said that he didn't want this or said more about how
Peter didn't know what he was doing, but he hadn't. He could have resisted this
from the beginning, but he hadn't, and he realized now that he never would.
Tony knew that he wouldn't be able to let this go, no matter how much he knew
he should. He didn't  want  to let this go, and he didn't want to let Peter go.
All of this was wrong, but nothing had been right in his life in a very long
time, and at least being with Peter gave him a feeling of belonging. He would
take all the guilt that came with that, he would take whatever he had to if it
meant that there was somebody there and that that somebody wouldn't realize
just how much of a letdown he was.
He pulled out of Peter's mouth before he came, and then he zipped up his pants
as he caught his breath, not sure what to say. But just the fact that he didn't
try to push the kid away seemed to be enough for Peter, and he stood up with a
hesitant smile.
“Did that...was that a mistake?” he asked.
“I don't know,” Tony replied with a sigh. “I don't know about any of this. I
might have been...wrong about some stuff, as unbelievable as that sounds, or I
could be wrong right now. But whatever's going on, I guess we can just see what
happens. Just don't ask me what we are, or anything like that, because I still
have no idea, and I probably won't for a long time.”
“That's good, though,” said Peter. “It's just, it's good that you understand
and that you're not pushing me away now and that you understand what I'm trying
to say to you. I just didn't want this to not happen, because I've been really
happy ever since you showed up and everything's been great and I think I might
even love you?”
The two of them stared at each other, neither sure what to make of Peter's
admission. The only thing Tony was sure of was that he was definitely in over
his head on this one.
 
End Notes
     who knows where i'm going with this
     certainly not me
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